It’s not about you. It’s about me, always.
This is me: hopelessly lost, hopelessly self-consumed
in irrational ideas about how
if I knew you, then I would know myself.
It’s been hard pinning down my existence,
so I try to find a you to define,
someone to know forwards and backwards,
looking for the possibility I’ve been effaced
into the stare of glossy eyes that can never see me,
into the grip of hands that can never hold me,
into the warmth of a body that can never love me.
It’s not you. It’s always me.
every luscious and unpalatable
shade of my being.
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This is so beautiful, so eloquent.
Thanks so much!! 🙂
I’m such a lazy blogger I just saw this!